Excruciating Agony: A Personal Struggle With the Mysterious Pain of Cluster Headaches
It began on a overcast weekday in the morning in the autumn of 2016. I was working as a educator, trying to settle a new class, when a sudden pain erupted behind my one eye. It was followed by rapid stabs, like electric shocks. As each class came and went, the pain eased and then returned with greater intensity. Multiple times that day I handed over a colleague with activities and ran to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cold water. I took paracetamol, but the pain remained unrelenting.
The headaches appeared frequently that fall, and once more in spring, soon forming an yearly cycle. The autumn months were the most severe, then the late winter. I could predict the pattern: a warning sensation in the shower, early twinges on the commute, full-blown pain in the classroom by 9.30am. In late 2019, a doctor eventually referred me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.
Cluster headaches typically begin with intense discomfort behind a single eye that persists for several hours.
Approximately one in 1,000 individuals are affected by the condition, and males are more frequently diagnosed. Attacks typically start with sudden, severe agony focused on a single eye that reaches its peak within minutes and lasts for up to three hours. Attacks come in clusters, every day or several times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or facial perspiration. I have an episodic type, which occurs in seasonal cycles; others have chronic cluster headaches, defined by the lack of long symptom-free periods.
What connects patients is the intensity. One study scored the pain at 9.7 out of 10, more severe than broken bones or other conditions. A separate discovered a significant percentage of cluster headache patients reported suicidal thoughts amid attacks; the number dropped to 4% when they were pain-free.
One patient, in her seventies, a long-term patient from Pembrokeshire, finds this understandable. Her attacks began when she was two. “I would throw myself on the ground and bang my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition worsened through her youth. Alcohol in her adolescence, like many triggers, made things more intense. After drinking sherry at her graduation party, she remembers hardly being able to see on the transport home.
Her relatives often mistook her attacks as drunken episodes. Understanding eventually came from her father and then from her partner, Rod. “I was very lucky to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after relocating, but often concealed her condition. She was fired from one job, partly due to time off during attacks. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a specialist neurology center.
Still, the failure to organize daily activities around erratic attacks took its toll. She particularly disliked being unable to plan outings, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her family during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the small freedoms we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She recalls winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.
Headaches have been documented across history. “The first description of headache comes by way of the Mesopotamians in antiquity,” write experts in a publication on the topic. They attributed the disease to an malevolent entity who afflicted his sufferers' heads.
Historical healing records suggest unusual treatments for what modern observers would describe as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, migraine was identified as a distinct disorder, with therapies ranging from bloodletting to other, more folk cures.
It was a Dutch physician who provided the initial detailed account of a cluster headache. In his writings, he speaks of a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache happening and vanishing daily at fixed hours”.
Cluster headaches were only officially classified by global medical societies in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a major artery which supplies blood to the brain. Leading experts in diagnosing the condition explain this.
In the late 1990s, scientists released the results of a research project for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and monitored the attacks in a imaging machine. The results, published in a major medical publication, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is in charge for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in pain, and a reduction when they felt better.
In spite of such progress, diagnosis remains delayed. One man's attacks began in the 1980s and felt like “a modelling balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he underwent four operations before finally being correctly identified in 2014, after a physician researched his symptoms.
Neurologists say delays in diagnosis and treatment occur because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He proceeds by ruling out other common headache conditions, such as tension-type headache, before confirming cluster headaches. A detailed patient history is crucial: on which side do signs occur? For how long? What season? Are there triggers, such as certain foods? Certain features such as tearing, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help verify the diagnosis. Once diagnosed, patients may be sent to specialist centers. But many first go to A&E or are given inadequate treatments.
Dorothy Chapman, 78, has suffered from cluster headaches for the majority of her life, although she has been free from an episode since recent years. When she was in her 20s, she had her teeth pulled because dentists misinterpreted her pain. She believes dentists still need greater awareness. When a sufferer sought help from a charity, it was she who replied. I remember calling a helpline during an attack in early 2021; a calm volunteer talked them through oxygen treatment and medication until the attack passed.
National guidelines on management advise that patients are offered high-flow oxygen and/or a anti-migraine drug administered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Prophylactic choices include verapamil, which apparently soothes the attacks of some people.
But consultant neurologists argue the official guidelines need updating to reflect a clearer clinical process and help general practitioners avoid misprescribing. For periodic patients, the treatment window is everything: “The duration of the bout dictates the treatment.” Brief cycles with occasional attacks are managed with acute therapy alone. Longer or more severe periods require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with steroids. A significant number of patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a cycle – an procedure into the area of the skull where the pain is that reduces nerve signals.
The official guidelines need updating to reflect a